This is my story of becoming an apprentice to a landscape. This year I moved from Mexico City to northern California and have been experimenting with new ways to converse, experience and be experienced by non-human life. It’s been a journey into an ecology of mind — a tale where the human psyche and imagination blossom and branch through entanglements with a planetary intelligence.

How is human psychology shaped by a landscape? This story is the first part of a series that explores how our synapses pattern through relation and reverence, and the remarkable necessity for human culture to co-evolve with an animate world.

My personal story follows this brief introduction and lays the ground for what’s to come. It’s part eco-philosophy, part poetry, part manifesto for all the human stories that emerge from wild wisdom.

Becoming Landscape

“We won’t get any story worth hearing until we witness a culture broken open by its own consequence.”

I read these words written by the great mythologist and storyteller Martin Shaw; they leap off the pages held in my lap, fluttering like the tufted titmouse songbirds I admire every sunrise on my balcony, catching me off guard, indicating a new way of contemplating something precious, a note of original trenchant song in an ocean of static sound.

Our culture is being broken open by climate catastrophes. We are witnessing, locked down at home, drawn to the ingeniously orchestrated flicker of our screens, a culture and a worldview quivering at the seams, our kitsungi unable to hold gold for much longer.

But instead of turning back onto our human selves, how can we surrender outwards, into all the stories that already exist coated across the land? I am frustrated by anthropocentric narratives — that human ingenuity will save the day yet again. Like Martin Shaw, I want to participate in stories that are “worth hearing” and for me they are distinctly more than human. They are stories worth getting up every day to tell, to join in the chorus of all the waking delighting things of the world.

When I picture a new story, and that of a culture broken open, all non-human things flood in to my mind. Wildness breaks in. I see living and ancient creatures of the world making their way through broken shells civilization tatters right into the human story, bringing us long forgotten expressions of life as primordial as the stars.

Not new stories, but very, very old ones.

Indra’s Net as told in dew and gossamer silk

The human psyche unfolded over millennia, developing, germinating, intertwining with a living world that was the compass and map we drew upon for survival, the tinder for our fires and dew on our lips. Our Homo sapien brains, our neuronal pathways, jolted and fused and tenderly sprouted new branches every time our eyes scanned the complexity of a living world, trying to make sense of its miraculous expressions, our bodies learning how to live by sensing the minutest details of topographies, foraging, tracking, hunting. Worshiping. We were nomadic, and as we moved through landscape, we became landscape and landscape became us.

Forgetful of this co-evolution, numbed to our actual co-dependence, today millions of people live in a world made by humans for humans with the lives of non-humans as mere base materials. And yet — we never left this vast intelligence, even if our artifices intend us to forget.

Consumed by a desire to come directly into relation, I moved my home to live as close to the “wild” as possible. I have been living in self-experimentation, learning from a first person relationship with my immediate ecosystem, becoming an apprentice to living beings. Praying for them to claim me and dream through me. For their consanguinity to seep through my synapses, rehydrating desiccated rivers, waking up a dormant psyche.

This first chapter is the beginning of that story, a few months in.

Part I

My barn having burned to the ground

I can now see the moon

- Mizuta Mazahide

Spring. The sky takes a long-awaited exhale. Deep within the earth, parched pockets of air soak up thick raindrops like a sponge. Bacterial communities hum in delight, giddy with hydration. Ripples form on the creek and grow into roving bubbles, exploratory entities snuffed out when the next fat plump lands on their skin.

I inhale the landscape. A sprig of roadside rosemary rolls oily between my thumb and forefinger, satin eloquence, whiffs of sticky sweet sagebrush lingering in my nostrils, the nibbled freshness of hierba buena leaves between my teeth. I pass a bay tree on my right but keep going, saving the papery firmness of its leaves to be crumpled into pungent halves and quarters upon my return, ready for tonight’s soup. Quivering grasses. Clumps of ladybugs thick like fists. White-starred flowers leap from Indian lettuces like dancers by my feet, nature’s stop motion art whirling out of green saucers. Further up the hill, modest lilac bonnets of wild peas cunningly distract from the plant’s creeping vines as it works itself foxy and unseen up the forest’s stalks and stems, fixing nitrogen, sewing an ecosystem.

Clumps of ladybugs

The landscape inhales me. A prolonged in-breath, months wide, each dawn a new trail, each crepuscular wandering a new seeing. Beings unfold. They tug at my hair while I gaze down transfixed at pygmy forests of clover, wild lily and parsley. I let them in. Branded upon my left thumb, a rite of passage — the faint trace of poison oak.

I learn their names as they learn mine, stepping forward one by one, invisible just a few hours before on the very same path, as if I was to understand that this is how they choose to be seen, prudent, watchful, coquettish. I feel unequipped, bumbling, awkward, ignorant. I yearn for a training I never had. An initiation that didn’t exist in my Swiss upbringing. An earth wisdom incomparable to acceleration and dissection.

I greet and sketch and taste and more than anything — I slow down. I listen. I pay my respects, sitting in mute conversation, knowing this land as a moving edible landscape of medicinal percipience, a woody family, a teeming ocean of sensitivity, a glint of silver sun among cadmium clouds. I purr quiet prayers among sunset groves, fumbling for words, surprised by the sudden burst of something distinctly sylvan pouring from my tongue.

Being inhaled
Rosemary, Douglas fir tip and hierba buena

A pallet of every conceivable color flourishes on the tip of nature’s brush. Humans call them wildflowers. They have hundreds of secret languages. Giant trilliums converse in mottled cuneiform characters, mysterious hieroglyphs daubed mauve on thick leaves; morning glories announce the day in soft trumpets, while beside them, fiercely blazing Indian paintbrushes stand in companies, readying for the day ahead, their claret petals warmed with the new wine of the year.

In ravines, the dazzling poppies that graced California with the nickname “Land of Fire” drink sunshine from golden cups. Lupine hearkens to her namesake, her purple wolf claws scraping at the sky. The absurdly named white ramping fury, his petals like black tipped worms, chatters with ingenious Hendersoni shooting stars, both proud of their sultry forms, somewhere caught between maroon dart and birds of paradise.

My imagination blossoms with the discovery of every new being; every new relation enriches what it means to be human. The stories flood in.

Indian lettuce dancers; Hendersoni shooting star; giant triullium hieroglyphs

A million budding questions linger on my lips. Why is only half the maple tree covered with feathery moss? How did this soft twig perfectly pierce the center a leaf held aloft in the air? How could this vine have curled itself impossibly around a huckleberry tree and the tree have absorbed it like an amorous lover? And I sit in wonder at how the tiny mohawked titmice that live in the apple tree on my porch gain the courage to defend their turf so fiercely, every morning attacking the gigantic, muscly squirrels that slink in to steal at their food supply. I grin, giving new meaning to the term pecking order. Dazzling irises in purple speckled gowns watch all this ruckus unfurl with quiet stately charm, holding a sylvan court on the forest floor.

I am aware of that I am bestowing human characteristics to distinctly non-human beings, and wonder if this may be permitted.

Every element of the landscape begins to weave into my own story of coming to place. I feel my senses and animal nature expanding. Crow, woodpecker, honeybee, coyote, newt, granite, acorn, fire, alabaster glow, sagebrush and my own salty tears. All have their place here in this ecology.

I begin to understand what it could mean to become the intelligence of the world, an extension of a living landscape, synapses and soul patterning through relation and reverence.


If the richness of human imagination is dependent on and emerges from the richness of a biodiverse landscape, then today’s exponential disappearance of that landscape and its forms of life is also an exponential loss of all the ways we can read and understand ourselves and all of life through it. New generations will have a distinctly impoverished new baseline from which to start up from.


The stories are being lost and stories matter. Stories build and destroy civilizations. They are the dark matter that fills the space between what we believe and what we do; the grey zone that leads us towards great beauty and great insanity.

Our stories, our mythos, our language, our creations, our dreams, are not uniquely ours. They did not originate in human thought separate from nature. Going a step further, I will say that our stories are those of the Earth dreaming us, and storying through us. Of one mind, compromised of all the minds that share this planet, a collective psyche moving and dreaming through us.

The Hopi word for the wild, tumqua, means “hard to approach, hard to get hold of”. The wild requires of us to engage in earnest, as apprentices, humbled, empty bundles to be filled with curiosity. It is slippery, devious, mischievous, unforgiving, prolific, sentient, and indeed, initially hard to approach. We have to earn our keep.

Part II — Desire Trails

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Synapse of mind

Learning Journeys | Ecological Literacy | Author, poet, wilderness guide | Investor | Co-founder Atlas Unbound, Ground Effect (